Am I bounded by someone elses shyte life that left behind?
Life is not going smoothly as i wanted it to be. I want an exit in my current life. Shall i hold my breath and fades or shall i scream but it will only bring anger. Though already wounded, shall i let it bleed and suppress by fear...or am i little insane :>
One said when go to war, casualties are expected. Unfortunately, i am the unlucky one wounded with scars. Maybe i should not reminisce the past and live with it. Let anger and sadness be in me. I wish i could say as the saying goes- I came I fought I conquer. But I failed. FAILED.
I know i am scratched and left with a scar or perhaps multiple scars. I detest the feeling. Tear me open perhaps a deeper scar is buried underneath. It aint over yet although the wound is closed and healed. I feel like as if the wound is over the scar and not underneath. Sometimes, I wish i could get lost in the nothingness inside of me.
Have you ever feel gloomy, so out of sense when tension is rising. The unwanted tension that you are forced to received and you'd rather sit at the little dark corner, shut your mouth and do as said because talk is cheap?
Tyring to push me down and break my soul? I say hell you go b*tch.
I thought you already see through it. Im sure you can get rid of it. JIA YOU.
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