I am trying to find myself. The me that is now buried deep under. The me that is now surrounded and overcasted by dark clouds. Every move i make and every step i take, dark clouds follow. Clouds of confussion and despair. A constant battle that i endure almost everyday though some days are more manageable than others.
I am now looking out the windows and all i could see is sky filled with dark clouds. I wish i could look through the thickness of the clouds but everything seem so gloomy, so ambiguous, so uncertain. I wish they would deminish and cease forever. I wonder if this is only the beginning. Will there be lightning and thunders or even rain. Is that the stage where life hits crisis. I am feeling confused and lost. When will the sun ever going to shine. My mind gist for a brighter day.
One said life is a journey and not a destination. And here i am lying on my bed, writing down the feelings and thoughts that highlight one bit of my dark journey. But these are not meant to be negative, but to push myself through and make a stonger me. Only those who suffer from it knows that struggle. I believe in all fairness and justice AND there will be sunshine in my days.
As for now, i need to get behind, rewind and playback myself to find out where the hell have i been all these while. Bring back my life!! I want to feel ready to greet a new day.
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