Is it kind of hard to give directions to someone who is clueless as to the destination? Yes, that someone is me, who am frozen with the direction and meaning of life.
Now I really am at a point where I deeply ponder the meaning of life and wonder what it is all about. Am I alone or is there someone out there who also stopped at the same intersection. Don’t get me wrong. I love my life and I love the world but somewhere somewhat somehow I do feel a sense of awe over the stunning beauty of life and nature.
Should one follow the heart or the mind? Sometimes there is this desire to follow the whisper of inner voice heard in the moment of stillness and quiet. I sure am confused whether this comes from the heart or mind.
You could say I am lost or tipsy in sensing the meaning and purpose in life but I definitely am sober enough to know I live day by day in total blueness and unhappiness - so incomplete, so unsatisfying, so unfulfilling, so unrewarding, so out of alignment.
Life is supposed to be exciting and open to discover and finding things that one wasn’t expecting but my feeling for life is like as if its wedged in chapters of an endless dull book. Call me granny as I no longer maintain that youthful enthusiasm for the different. Perhaps that is what made my life so dull and so unexciting. Perhaps not, perhaps I am using too much of today whining about now and the past and not longing towards the future. Perhaps I should consider my life, the one I have today, the one I am living this moment, and ask myself what is it that I really want.
Can someone help me see the light? I want to follow my heart without losing my mind.
